Turns out retirement comes with a starter kit.
Not gold watches
anymore — diaries and pens.
Apparently, the
universal assumption is that the moment you stop clocking in, you'll develop an
urgent need to journal your feelings in cursive.
When my mother
retired, her students gave her a diary and a pen with the quiet confidence of
people gifting a fire extinguisher, "just in case you combust with free
time."
As I hit the official Indian retirement number, the one they print on forms. I made the
mistake of telling my mother I didn't know what to do with myself now.
Her face lit up with
the joy mothers reserve for recycling old material on children.
"I'll give you
a diary," she said. "Just write Ram Ram." Repeatedly. Page after
page. Instant purpose, zero creativity required, and technically religious
practice.
I laughed and told her I wasn't
going to write anything like that. I was going to copy and paste it on the computer.
She didn't even
blink.
"Do whatever
you want," she said, "but this is still the best use of your time if
you have nothing else to do."
Which is either deep
wisdom or the most passive-aggressive blessing I've ever received. Possibly
both.
It all reminded me
of something I once heard: an actor talking about his son's love for anime and
K-dramas: "Entertainment changes. Things change. Everything changes."
Which is either the
plot of every K-drama ever made, or the entire philosophy of Vedanta, condensed
into one sentence and delivered with better subtitles.
And that, I think,
is the real inheritance here.
The previous
generations found the sacred in a pen looping "Ram Ram" across a
page, syllable by syllable, patience by patience.
Mine finds it in a
cursor blinking on a blank Google Doc, waiting to be filled with whatever
refuses to stay unsaid.
Different tools,
same discipline: showing up, repeating the practice, trusting that meaning
accumulates even when it looks like nothing.
Ram Ram or Ctrl+V is
all just devotion.
Every generation thinks it has modernized.
The next generation calls it outdated.

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